I recently downloaded a dating app for queer women.

Now that I've done it and have had a few days to see it staring up at me from my screen, I find that I may be too chicken shit to actually use it.

I figured, since I've been such a shut-in recently, maybe human interaction would help and despite my constant joking that I'm preparing to be a spinster for the rest of my life, there is a part of me that crave connection with another human being. I fear this feeling however, since the last two people I chose to give my heart to returned it to me in a thousand pieces.

I don't know. Maybe this app will be good for me. Maybe I'll start getting over this fear of letting people in. Or maybe it won't. I guess we'll just have to see.